bored bored bored...

you know what, ever since vacation started, I have not been doing that much... Im so bored.... Even blogging has lost its thrill... hahaha!:D no one reads it anyway so...:) hahaha!:D Well, i miss my best friends, barkada, classmates, batchmates etc...:( haaay... its holy week... We are going to san jose batangas tomorrow to visit my lolo there...:) I think we'll spend the night over...:)

also, i have decided to finally take up management honors in admu... It's gonna be tough, really... nanghihinayang ako sa intarmed ko sa U.P. pero maybe i'm not that fit to be a doctor...: haay... course choosing is so hard.

Im excited with my EK outing on April 15!!!:D weeee!:) (chubs, panda bear, angel red, betsie, may, madz and salby... together with cha and djay) heehee....:) I can't wait.:D

:) part 2

HI!!:) woah..:) hehehehe..:) nothing else to do so i'm writing again...:) Well, i woke up at about 930 in the morning...:) After that, I helped my mother with my sister's schoolwork... wow, im doing a task for 3rd year Management engineering students!!!:) weeee...:) its brain torture though... whew, im so glad i've done my part already...:)

This afternoon, I had text sessions with danny (nn -mango cream pie) and benny (camgee)...:) I had so much fun..:) hahaha!:) hehehehe..:) I miss mcp... di na kasi kami nag-uusap e... oh well...
Hahaha, i just remembered something... Nakinig ako sa mga oldies ngayong araw na to..:) hahaha beatles rock!! bwahahaha, no kidding..:) Now i know why my dad loves their music..:) hehehehe..:)

Just an hour ago, i got the chance to chat with agats...:) hehehe, which was a good thing..:) She gave me the idea of having a scrapbook for people to sign..:) hehehe..:) that's why im gonna make one..:) i think a folder and bond papers will do..:) its the messages that will count...

Im feeling the goodbye spirit now...:( haaay..:( just one more week..:(

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this day was full of mixed emotions... we had our recollection...:) early in the morning, i was kind of depressed.. ( i dont know why but i was, I kept on crying) it was a good thing our retreat masters had wonderful things to say, which helped me to become a bit okay...:) then there was the activity...:) Brother Josh gave us 7 papers with different messages written in each one of them...:) It was up to us to give them to 7 different people who means a lot to us...:) I wanted to give more than 7, but it was not possible...:( Anyway, i cried again when i received and read the 23 messages that were given to me...:) I didn't know i meant so much to such a number of people...:) I felt glad that many of my friends remembered me, and so tears of joy rolled down my cheeks... AGAIN..(Im such a cry baby..:) Inspite of the many problems i have, i felt happier than I've felt for days... Thank you guys...:) Ill manage to repay you somehow...:) Thats why i love each and everyone of you...:) Thanks for all the support.

After the activity, I felt sad again...:( I don't know why...:( sigh, i dont know what to do anymore... Later that day, my academic honors were announced to me..:) I experienced joy, for i got 13 awards all in all, special mention to the Valedictorian award... But that was only momentary... the sadness that i am feeling just wont go away...:(

I hope it goes away na...:( I dont want to live like this anymore...:( But still, i know that everything will be allright soon...:) With the help of my family and friends...:) I know i can...:) And of course, GOD.:) I will do this for all of you...:)

what a day...

this was a boring day indeed... haaay... im so tired of always doing the same stuff.. earlier this day i contemplated about many things...

dear Lord, please help me fix up my life... may i live with happiness and content... i beg of you... i cant do this anymore.. its just so hard... please be there for me, for at times i feel so alone... A used teddy bear...

I wonder when ill find a fellow teddy bear who'll hug me tight when I'm lost and say: "its all right my dear... you'll be safe here.." how i wish she existed... then i can be saved from this madness...

All these grades and achievements, i will trade
In order for me to be saved...

Call me weird or something, but hey, that's how i feel...

oh well... here we go again...

well, this day was very tiring... El fili play, emotional breakdown.. very nice combo!!!:D hahahaha..:( haaay....

graduations so near... my eyes are gonna be filled with tears when that day comes..