my sadness outlet...

i think starting now ill always write in this blog... It might help me release the bad feelings that i get in each and everyday of my life... Sigh, thank goodness for this blog... I know it will always be my friend, for it only listens.. and never talks... Weird, but true.:)

thoughts...

Im still thinking about many things at the moment... I really ruined my life this time around... If i could just go back and time, i really would... But i know that isnt possible... I know this is the way its gonna be forever.. Although I know that im fighting a losing battle, I still pray at night... I still pray that somehow, I can fly once again... My blades are broken and shattered, but in time, i hope it will be repaired and be brought back to its majestic form... I just wish it would occur sooner, because I dont know how long I can last living this empty life of mine... With no purpose, with no will, with no reason to go on...

leave me alone

wow, i hear these two entries in my blog have been very popular lately... Some people happened to locate my blog and read my entries without any permission at all.. Well, i guess thats okay.. But why did you have to make stories out of it??? Why didnt you leave me alone? Gimme a break guys, if any of you visit this, please read what i have to say...

many things have happened since my last entry... I assure you... Before, i had everything... Now, i have nothing... I know i know its my fault... I messed up my own life... But i just wanna thank all of you guys for helping me mess it a little bit further.. I owe you all... Somehow i must repay... How, I think? How can i repay you for treating my life as a source of issue??... Ah, i know... Im gonna start living my life in order to please you guys... Ill do everything that you want to see from now on... Im sorry for ruining your future speculations about whats happening to my life... Hahaha im a bad motherfucker anyway..:) hahahaha, all of you agree right?? you always have before.. Dont tell me youve softened since then? Then its settled..

Here's to Jurmane, the guy who made the biggest mistake of his life... I just hope i can survive this remaining month... Im tired, im beat, im lost... Ayan, panalo na kayo... I give up.