my life, my dilemma...

Existence

2008-08-09T17:32:00.001+08:00

A blog that time forgot.

To revitalize or not? Are some things better left buried?

85th entry

2007-02-19T18:40:00.000+08:00

And once again, I revisit this blog and memories come rushing back to me. :) Some I miss, some I don't even want to be associated with. Oh well, it would be nice to use start using this blog again. :)

I desperately need a jar of cookies today. and oh, a full blast of moonlight as well. :)

almost forgotten

2006-11-29T14:36:00.000+08:00

heeelloooo!:) hahaha...:) tila napabayaan na ang blog na ito. i had to get a new password pa nga because i couldn't remember the old one. hahaha..:)

Anyway, kaya rin ayoko na kasi masyado magpost dito.... is because of those damn spammers... comment lang ng comment sa mga entries ko... nag-aadvertise ng kung ano... siyempre wala naman akong pake dun sa mga yun diba? hahaha... Sa sobrang tagal na hindi ko to na update, baka wala ng magtingin... haha... pero okay lang, at least kapag may gusto ko sabihin na hindi ko malagay sa lj, dito ko na ilalagay... Yun nga lang, napakaplain nito. Kainis, hindi kasi ako marunong magbago, and i dont have the time anyway. hahaha :)

update-update na lang siguro. im not the type of person to make long entries sa blog. hahaha :)

after a long time

2006-02-11T16:50:00.000+08:00

oh well, mukhang napabayaan ko na ang blog na to nang husto.. hahaha meron kasi ako sa lj, and i have another one in wordpress...

i guess tama lang na hindi na ko masyado magsulat dito. It's time to put the past behind, and just live for the future..:)

new life, new purpose, new blogsites!:)

livejournal: jurmi-bear.livejournal.com
wordpress: lougeekld4.wordpress.com

visit them if you have the time!:)

permanent...

2005-11-24T14:12:00.000+08:00

urbandub - a new tattoo

Great moments they pass by
If you’re careless
Desperately trying to speak the words
I’ve been wanting to say for a long time.
Tongue tied, every time I try to talk to you
In time, I’ll find the right line.

Caught a glimpse of you
I tremble every time you walk by
Hopelessly trying to find a way
To be near you, to get near you.
In my mind, plays thoughts of you all the time
I’ll find the right line…

I’ll bleed for you
Like a new tattoo in my heart
You’ll stay permanent…

Am I too late now?
Will I find a way to get to you somehow?
She’s breaking me down again
She’s breaking me down.

just updating..:)

2005-10-20T00:36:00.000+08:00

ive decided to maintain to blogs... one here and one in lj..:) para dalawa diba?:P im currently talking to my sky friend over ym... i hope she gets into eliazo!:) hehehe..:P

im going to go to EK this friday..:) hope i have fun with my blockmates..:D

btw, im so pissed at my current gta vice city game... rrrrrr, i keep on repeating the same missions over and over again... sigh, must be dumb luck or lack of skill... recklessness maybe??:) heehee..:D

check out my live journal!:D user name is jurmi_bear!:D thanks!:D

happiness

2005-09-23T00:21:00.000+08:00

all i wanna say is... inspite of all the stress, back and shoulder pain that im experiencing, im really happy right now...:) haay..:D

"put your heart, in my hands... you'll be safe here...:D"

talentless....

2005-09-12T00:49:00.000+08:00

damn... i guess my talents aren't just enough to win me anything... oh well... can't say i didn't try... haay, stupid kaayo gyud ko... im retiring from IAC...

goodbye "you and me..."
goodbye "crazy for you..."

sheesh...

the question

2005-09-02T01:13:00.000+08:00

Why did i involve myself in so many extra-curricular activities? haay... i wanna have fun, but school just won't let me...

stone freak!:)

2005-08-27T00:59:00.000+08:00

wow, i just watched stonefree live!!!:) i got miro's signature..:) hahaha..:D ang bait niya pala, hinaharass na nga siya ng mga babae sige pa rin... hahaha...:) oh well, tinatamad pa ko magsulat.. hehehe..:D

2005-08-11T00:40:00.000+08:00

i've decided that im not going to the halikinoise concert anymore... even though it features rivermaya, its too much of a hassle for my mom to drive me there... she wont allow me to commute din... neway, i just volunteered to evaluate sybil, the amp band im assigned to manage... at least they're just going to perform at ardz, katipunan..:) its relatively near.. or so they say, i haven't been there yet...

argh, grabe talaga tong week na to... i keep cracking up every now and then... mr. and ms. iac meetings, org ga's, ajma competition, amp events... argh... my grades at the top of the list... hay naku, how i wish there's no need for sleep, i'd probably be able to accomplish them with much free time...

yeah, as if that would happen...:)

2005-08-05T01:01:00.000+08:00

I THINK EVERYONE's so busy na... yeah, it's sad... I barely have time to blog nowadays.... and what's the point? No one's reading them na naman e, so why bother?:) hahaha..:) wala lang...

Lately, i've been too paranoid with my grades... Especially with the essays that I write... I feel they're always not good enough.. and btw, if you happen to read kei's blog too, she was right in saying that there was lack of academic training in high school... I don't blame the school or anything, just to clear things out. It's just that I thought I was a capable writer, until I entered ADMU... I have a very hard time in producing thesis statements, plus my analytical skills have become way-off target the last few times...

Maybe because I never felt this type of competition before, when everyone is almost always better than me... I used to aim to be on the top during highschool, but now, I'm lucky to scrape off being a deanlister at the end of the sem...

dili ko talaga kasabot daghan bagay dito!

ang banda ng bayan..:)

2005-07-31T22:52:00.000+08:00

rivermaya is the best..:) nakikinig ako sa RT 995 ngayun..:) ang galing talaga..:)

hinahanap-hanap kita...:)

i wish i can become as good as rico with regards to his musical talent..:) hahaha..:)

such a shame... haven't written a song for a while... haay... my guitar skills aren't improving as well... at least my voice is not fading though..:) hahaha..:)

2005-07-12T23:17:00.000+08:00

yey, i got perfect sa math quiz ko... babawi na tlaga ko promise..:)

My Orgs : Ateneo Management Association, Ateneo Junior Marketing Association, Ateneo Musician's Pool, Cervini-Eliazo Residence Students Association and lastly, A-Stat, the new statistics org.;)

i hope we get high in our lab report tomorrow... Sana lang talaga.. Pinaghirapan talaga yun..

i had a chat with a cebuano... taga sebuano link din..:) hehehe..:D he taught me some stuff..:D hehehe ang saya..:) sna turuan niya ko ulit next time...:D

well, yun lang, what a worthless entry..:D hehehe..:) halo-halo..:D

disbanded na daw ang barbie's cradle... naku, magsosolo daw si barbie... oh well, ang labo talaga pag nasa music scene ka.. hehehe..:D

ewan ko ba...

2005-07-11T22:45:00.000+08:00

i feel weird... nagswimming kasi kami nina ral e.. hehehe... nakakainis, beginner lang talaga ko..:D hehehe..:) oh well..:) college college college... kelan kaya magkikita yung barkada namin?? haay... at least i have my dorm mates with me... they're very good company..:) sabi ni benj paggamit daw ng net...:D hahaha wait lang nga..:) hehehe..:D next time na lang ulit...:D

wala lang..

2005-07-07T08:47:00.000+08:00

im in ctc right now with my sky friend..:) hehehe..:D free cut kasi ako sa physics, pero i asked my teacher about some stuff pa kasi sabi maglolong test na daw kami next next week... siyempre ako naman kabado diba??:D hahaha..:D alam ko namang physics is not my forte e...

oh well, what has been happening??:D feel na feel ko na yung mga orgs na sinalihan ko... Kakainterview ko nga lang sa ama the other day..:D kinareer!!:) hehehe..:) basta i think im going to love my home org..:) i joined up for the enterprise development department (natuwa pa nga si Donna, yung interviewer, dahil siya yung VP dun sa dep na yun.. hehehe..:) sa amp naman ill pass the application form later pa, and sa ajma.. im having problems with the registration... medyo naguguluhan ako e... hehehe..:)

uuwi na ko later, mga 430.:) Sasabay si ACE..:) (hey ace, nakakarami ka na sakin ha..:D wahahaha joke..:)

oo nga pala, nag-usap na kami ni gbf..:D ahahaha..:D pinasabi ko pa hi kay keshia.. tsk tsk talaga..:D hehehe..:)

2005-07-05T00:53:00.000+08:00

aray ko po, 12:51 na... hindi pa rin ako natutulog... kasi naman yung lab namin e.. e ako pa naman pinagbubutihan ko talaga..:) haaay..:D

i joined ajma, amp and ama...:D cersa rin ako!!:D hehehe..:) so apat na sila all in all..:D yeba!!:D

about school life, ayos naman.. i'm still working hard.. we're gonna have a math quiz on wednesday so mag-aaral talaga ko nang mabuti.

about love life, huwag niyo na tanungin... wala kayong mapapala..:) hehehe..:D

2005-06-30T23:52:00.000+08:00

ah nabura putcha... sorry for the term... hindi lang kasi masyado maganda mood ko ngayon... nalaman ko na meron na pala si KLD girl... hahaha ang drama e noh??:D hahaha di pa kayo nasanay sakin..:))

anyway, dahil sa kabiguan kong ito, bigla ko tuloy namiss yung female friends ko sa highschool... sanay pa naman ako na maraming pinagbubuhusan ng sama ng loob tulad nina ritz trix kei kat camgee ise at marami pang iba na sana ay hindi magtampo dahil hindi ko sila nasulat.. inaantok na kasi ako e..:D hehehe...:) gusto ko kayo yakapin isa-isa.. that's how much i miss you guys... the way we shared almost everything...

nostalgia is killing me. i think i'll sleep na..:)

another day..

2005-06-29T16:58:00.000+08:00

study study study always..:) okay naman yung day ko, i got a perfect score in my lit quiz... yipee!!!:D but i don't know if i did good in my english essay though.. sana okay naman..:D

kakapagod maglakad sa campus... ang dami kasing bldgs e.. hahaha..:D oh well, meron na kong net dito!!:D yey..:) kaya nakakapag-update na ko ng blog..:) hehehe..:D

so dito lang muna, kelangan ko pa magbasa-basa later..:)

feeling worse than yesterday...

2005-06-28T15:17:00.000+08:00

i'm waiting for my lab groupmates here in ctc... haay.. naalala ko na naman.. ang baba ng math exam ko... samantalang yung iba okay naman.. sana naman makabawi ako next time... grabe, valedictorian ako ng manresa pero dito extra lang... haha hay nako.. pang-highschool lang pala ko.. kaya nga paminsan, nahihiya ako na sumabay sa blockmates ko.. i feel inferior. maybe i should just shift to management instead..

sana rin nakapasa ako ng AJSS... kung inayos ko lang sana yung test at nag-aral... bigla kasi ko nainggit dun sa mga kadorm ko na nakapasa... ang tatalino nila lahat... i wish i were like them... tapos sabay-sabay pa nila sinusuot jacket nila kapag umuulan.. haay damn it!

pero naisip ko rin if ever pumasa ko dun, tumuloy kaya ko??? i would have had to give up my corps comm slot if i took ajss classes.. summer training kasi e.. haay.. every choice that we make has a value in our life... parang batas ng ipinagpalibang halaga sa ekonomiks.. kung pipiliin mo ang isa, mawawala ang isa.. sayang talaga..

kaasar wala pa rin yung groupmates ko.. baka inindyan na ko or something.

Congratulations to all my fellow ateneans/manresans/closest friends, i'm sure you did good in your diagnostic tests...

He has lost his former glory, buried in the things that he has done in the past.

math diagnostic test - 69

2005-06-27T11:55:00.000+08:00

wow... what a score... considering the fact that my other mgt-h blockies got 80+ and some even 100.. how dumb can i be?? generally, i feel bad... i feel ashamed... i mean, my other classmates in math got lower, but they're not mgt-h... get the idea???

thats it, starting now, im going to study very hard... very very hard.. no more fooling around... no more KLD whom i saw this morning because their classroom was next to ours...

nag-aalala rin ako sa lab report namin, nakakabadtrip kasi e... di pa nman ako magaling sa physics... oh well...

Deanslister??? wenk..

after a long time...

2005-06-26T14:18:00.000+08:00

after a long time, all i have to say is (at least for now) : why do you have to be so perfect, KLD?:)
I would sing my heart out for you...:) hahaha..:D

BALISONG

Your face lights up the sky on the highway. Someday, you'll share your world with me someday. You mesmerize me with diamond eyes. I try to fool myself to think I'll be alright. But I am losing all control. My mind, my heart, my body and my soul

Never in my life have I been more sure. So come on up to me and close the door. Nobody's made me feel this way before. You're everything I wanted and more...

Yeah, you're everything i wanted... and more..:)

oh yeah..:P mojofly mania it is..:D

2005-06-04T14:01:00.000+08:00

NOW, mojofly's album, is playing in my comp right now..:D yey!!!:D kakatuwa nga e, katext ko si camgee kanina, my mojofly buddy..:D hehehe..:) ang dami kong bagong nalaman about them..:D nasabihan pa niya ko dun sa wanted extra sa video ng SA UULITIN..:D wahahaha nakakatawa talaga..:d baliw na kaming dalawa..:D

speaking of buddies, yung rivermaya buddy ko aka sweetie ---missing!!!:D wahaha..:D wala na ko balita..:D hoy magparamdam ka nga champ!!!:D wahahaha..:D

also, i bought the killers HOT FUSS..:D alright..:D MR BRIGHTSIDE...:D

"goodbye, goodluck to you.." -mojofly-

just another splendid love song.:P

2005-06-03T12:24:00.000+08:00

hehehe...:D i watched orange and lemon's interview earlier this day..:D hahaha..:P nakakagulat nga e, because they said they classify their music as pop..:D hehehe..:) oh well, i just listened to the killers' samples..:) i wanna buy their album, hot fuss.. kaso yung pera..:) hahaha..:D masakit sa bulsa talaga ang international cd..:P gusto ko pa rin kasi bumili nung bamboo at mojofly e..:P hehehe..:D

im going to admu tomorrow... again..:D hahaha..:) nakacheck in na ko yesterday..:P hehehe ayos naman ang dorm..:P just have to wait for my roommates to show up i guess..:P sana naman ay magkasundo kami..:D hehehe..:)

oh btw, people have been saying that im getting so hairy..:P hahaha hay nako talaga..:D ano ba yan..:D

"open up my eager eyes, cause i'm mr. brightside.." - the killers-

(naks, hindi opm..:D hahaha..:D at saka yung nilalagay ko sa baba, usually trip ko na lang na kanta at the moment..:P hindi na yung pinapakinggan ko habang sinusulat to..:) konti lang kasi nasa playlist ko e..:D)

wadapak...:))

2005-05-31T10:57:00.000+08:00

okay..:) so this was half-written a long time ago and i just decided to finish it earlier..:P comment on the song, please..:D thanks..:P pasensya na at may pagkarusty ang lyrics..:D

BUHAY

Kababangon lang mula sa kama
Barkada agad ang nasa isip niya
Anong kalokohan ang magagawa
Sa eskwelang pinapasukan ko

Dala-dala niya ang bag sa hallway
Nagbell na ngunit walang pakielam
Ako ba'y makikinig sa aking klase
O magpapaporma lang sa katabi

Sige tsong, astig yan
Sundin ang iyong kagustuhan
Gawin ang nais sa iyong buhay

Alam naman ang kanyang gagawin
Tinatamad lang talaga palagi
Mahaba pa naman ang oras ko
Pabayaan muna ang mga iyan

Sige tsong, astig yan
Sundin ang iyong kagustuhan
Gawin ang nais sa iyong buhay

Kapalaran lang naman ang buhay
Hindi mo agad-agad mababasa
Mapapansin mo na lang ito kapag
Pagkakatao'y nakalampas na

Sige tsong, astig yan
Sundin ang iyong kagustuhan
Gawin ang nais sa iyong buhay
(Sige tsong, astig yan)
Mayroon lang akong katanungan
Masaya ka ba sa iyong buhay

"are you happy with a shooting star..." -teeth-

overload part 2..:D

2005-05-31T00:29:00.000+08:00

LOUGEE BASABAS!!!:D hehehe..:D wala lang, gusto ko lang isulat yung pangalan niya..:) hehehehe ang galing niya talaga grabe..:D with matching looks and guitar skills pa..:) *nuff said* hehehe..:D mojofly rocks!!!:D swerte talaga ng bahista ng session road...:)) hahaha..:D

halata bang wala akong magawa??:D hehehe wala nga..:P

at chubs, may kasalanan ka sakin.. hmph... you mislead me ha..:( hahaha..:D deh joke lang..:)

"scooter boy, asan ka???.." -mojofly-

shux naman!!!

2005-05-30T22:43:00.000+08:00

aray ko po, gumising ako ng maaga kasi may pinapagawa si mami sakin.. saka i read kitchie would be on breakfast... cancelado naman pala!!! argh.. kasakit daw si miss kitchie...:( hope she gets well soon..:) may gig daw siya mamayang gabi kaya God bless na lang sa kanya...:) hehehe..:D

as for me, i'm still coughing and coughing and sniffing and sniffing.. hehehe...:) i wanna finish angels and demons!!:D i know, matagal na yun, pero ngayon lang ako nabalik sa mood ng pagbabasa..:)) for a while kasi naging allergic ako sa mga libro e..:) hehehe..:D

"ngayong nandito na ako, di na muling iiwan ka..." -juana-

better write more stuff...

2005-05-30T15:20:00.000+08:00

oh sheesh, i've realized i haven't been writing songs for a while now, let alone putting some melody in... hay naku, pano na ang pangarap kung hindi kikilos??? hahaha..:D im promising to write more starting yesterday..:) sana naman maayos na yung lyrics ko, masyado siya nagiging cheezy and mushy (yes sky, you are right..:D hahaha..:) i better leave love alone for a while.. write about other important stuff as well.. ano kaya??:) hehehehe...:) i cant think of a darn thing...

"every day's the same old thing with you..." -urbandub-

course buddies..:) hahaha

2005-05-30T14:59:00.000+08:00

ABELLA, MARIANNE CLEDERA
ANG, ADELINE JO LIM
CAMACHO, GREGORIO MADDELA
CHANTO, SANTINI LANZ LIM
DE LEON, MARGARITA MEER
DEE, CELINE MELANIE ANG
DELAS PEÑAS, JOHN PATRICK CLETO
ESCOLIN, ERICA CRISOLOGO
FABROS, NOEL CHRISTIAN CRUZ
GELVEZON, JOSE RAMON SANTILLAN
IGNACIO, LEON ALEJANDRO LOPEZ
KING, CLARIZEL LOPEZ
LALLANA, JURMANE AMBAY
LEGASPI, LA VERNE DELA ROSA
LIMSICO, JEREMIAH ICANH LIM
MELEGRITO, DAPHNE ALELI FENIX
NARANJO, KAREN TANCONGCO
PATAG, JOSE ALFONSO SIONSON
POBLADOR, JULIA HANNAH ANGELES
RUFINO, MARIA YSABEL LORENZA PADILLA
SO, BRIAN DANIEL CHANG
TAN, FRANCIS GONZALO AUSTRIA
TAN, ROSEDELL ABEGAIL YU
UY, SAMANTHA JAYNE YENCO
VILLAROSA, PETER STEPHEN QUISMORIO
YAO, KIMBERLY NG
YU, CRISSANN MEARA SAW

listahan ng mga bmh sa admu..:D weee...:P im excited to meet them na..:) hehehehe..:D

"babalik ang kwago, ang kwago sa gabi..." -kapatid-

post sickness???/mojofly album release!!!:D

2005-05-29T14:40:00.000+08:00

oh well, if you're wondering why the daily posts stopped, that's because i got sick... i still am sick now, but at least not like what i felt last tuesday and wednesday.. oh man, that was bad... i even missed my fave show, smallville, because i couldn't watch tv.. okay, enough of that.

i was very fortunate to catch mojofly on the radio last night..:) swerte ko talaga!!:D they were performing at capones in makati, and they were live throught RT... grabe, ang galing nila magperform!:D kahit audio lang ako naiimagine ko sila..:) hehehe..:D especially lougee...:) haaaay talaga..:D i hope i really get to see her perform live..:) hahaha!:D may album na sila, yey!!:D gonna buy it with the bamboo cd..:D woohoo..:)) later.:D

"trying hard to control my heart, i walked over to where you are..." -sponge cola-

yey!!!:D

2005-05-24T06:52:00.000+08:00

first of all, i pray na sana maging maayos ang day ng mga taga DLSU..:P hehehe..:) kahit sinabi ko na kasi sa inyo na mag-admu na kayo..:)) wahahaha kidding..:D

at siyempre, kaya ko masaya dahil nagets ko ang strumming pattern ng youll be safe here kagabi..:D hehehe..:) malapit ko na mabuo yung song..:D hehehe..:) the only problem is..:D di ko pa kaya kumanta habang nagigitara..:D too distracting for a beginner like me..:D hehehe..:D

haha, ang dami ko pa gustong bilhing cd..:) hehehe last time i bought simple plan's new album, still not getting any..:) hehehe..:D matagal na rin akong hindi nakakabili ng international artist cd bago nun...:) and yes, im a simple plan fan..:D (yuck rhyming pa e noh!!!:) although they're music tends to be shallow and rather too angry at times, they're really a great punk band.. inspite what others might say..:D hehehe..:D makapunk kasi ako e..:P siyempre i like greenday, good charlotte, blink 182, yellowcard etc..:D at okay din yung helena ng my chemical romance ngayon!!!:D astig..:D

but of course, opm pa rin ang nakakalamang sa aking puso..:) wahahaha..:D no one does it better than pinoys..:D hehehe..:D the local music scene has really proven its worth..:D kahapon lang i listened to rivermaya, ang banda ng bayan..:) hehehe all time fave ko..:D ang galing nila sa live na live ng 89.9..:D grabe they're the best..:D sorry to bamboo fans, rico blanco and the guys are the kings for me..:D hehehe..:) going back, i wanna buy orange and lemons strike whilst the iron is hot and 6cycleminds permission to shine..:) hehehe..:D at siyempre yung trip at self titled album ng rivermaya..:D hehehe..:D im waiting for bamboo's release too, magaling din naman talaga sila e..:D hehehe..:D

"so long to you, my love..." -hale-

just something that popped out...

2005-05-23T14:13:00.000+08:00

yes, we've known each other
for a long time

when we were still young
you were a friend
a special one actually

but you and i
we grew apart
three years blew by

finally we picked up, where we left off
the closer we got, the harder became
the situation

i got someone, you got yours too
at times when you fought
i was there for you
and when it was my turn
you were there too

i really cant describe
what i was feeling back then
it wasn't possible
it never will be

the feeling's still here
every time i see you
the happiness i feel
is beyond measure

and so i still think about
what might have happened
if i just hadn't stopped
things would be different
very very different...

hahaha..:D ano ba yan, why am i always writing mushy crap???:) hahaha..:D guess its my specialty.. anyway, thats not a song ha.. parang poem lang siya of some sort, i dont know.. ay grabe...:D sana mapanood ko mojofly sometime... haay.. i wanna see lougee perform..:D hehehe..:D wats with me and mojofly vocalists??:D wahahaha i dont know actually..:) bye now...:D

"break on through to the otherside, break on through to the other side..." -bamboo-

i wish i can make it okay...

2005-05-23T12:30:00.000+08:00

oh well.. weird title huh??? hehehe, that's because im currently very sad about what's happening with my friends... ewan ko, parang hindi matapos tapos ang kanilang problema.. sa bagay sakin rin naman e... hindi talaga matapos-tapos... i guess we just have to trust in God...:) He is good, therefore we should always ask His guidance and help in everything that we do..:) kaya sa sinumang nagbabasa nito, just pray na lang... i know it sounds preachy, and i'm not an angel, and i'm having a hard time in life din naman like everybody.. pero i believe that's the best thing one should do...:) pray..:D

"he went to church every Sunday.." -eraserheads-

11th hour experience...

2005-05-22T14:55:00.000+08:00

sheesh, buti pa ang free fall my battle of the bands... honestly, naiinggit talaga ko... kasi naman... i really wanna sing and perform.. alam ko namang i'm not the best of vocalists pero i really enjoy singing... and i feel bad kasi wala kaming naging gigs or kung ano man ngayong summer... before sa school.. natutuwa ako kapag nabibigyan kami ng opportunity na magperform...

naaalala ko pa lahat ng natugtog ng 11th hour.. the first time na nagperform kami is nung family day nung junior year...:) actually, kamuntik p nga kaming hindi masama sa list of bands... we weren't very good sa auditions kasi.. i mean, chrissy sang very well, and paulo and i backed her up okay i guess.. all the other guys played their respective instruments nicely too... the only problem was... we chose TELL ME HOW YOU FEEL by joy enriquez... were we kidding ourselves that we would get in by choosing that song? sheeesh... fortunately, they got additional bands to play for family day..:) so ayun, we performed two songs, PERFECT by simple plan and SMOOTH by santana feat rob thomas... at that moment, i just felt something that i've never felt before... i was so alive that night at the stage..:D hehehe..:) though my friends said perfect was okay, but smooth was much better.. hahaha aray ko po.. ako pa naman ang main vocals sa perfect, si pauey sa smooth... hahaha pero ayos lang, i admit that he's better than me.:)

next up was the Christmas party..:) we spent long hours of practice at pauey's place before that event.. we performed PLAY THAT FUNKY MUSIC (cant remember the artist), TOO CLOSE (freestyle's version), and TELL ME HOW YOU FEEL (again.. hahaha but this time our batchmates liked it so it wasnt that bad..:) we had people dancing sa gitna nung circle, it was a good feeling..:) it truly was, promise..:) siguro isa na yun sa pinakaokay na performances namin..:) hehehe..:D

naku... when was our next performance.. think think think... i guess it was during the elections during senior year..:) meeting de avance pa nun, and i was runnig for asst PRO pa..:) chrissy sang WAITING IN VAIN (mymp version i suppose) as always, she sang well.:) then paulo and i were the vocals on THAT THING YOU DO by the wonders... it was a mediocre performance, definitely.. i didnt know if i sounded out of tune even.. hindi ko kasi masyado marinig... tapos may nakalimutan pa kong linya.. add up paulo's piyok moment and yun na ang resulta.. (which was not his fault kasi mahirap talaga yung song..) kakatawa nga e, tuwing nababanggit yung the wonders all of us smirk... hahaha.:D

ano na ba yung next? ah, yung auditions for senior year fam day..:) this time we got included..:) whew..:D we did JEEPNEY by sponge cola..:) ganado ako magperform nun kasi i like the song..:) hehehe..:D

then family day came... hay nako grabe... okay naman yung SAILING by urbandub, okay yung pagkagawa ni paulo sa vocals (back up lang kasi ko dun..) hindi nga lang masyado kilala yung kanta kaya wala masyadong audience impact... pero before that, i messed up... i sang most of DALIRI by kjwan... and naku po, nakalimutan ko yung lyrics, nagkamalimali pa ko sa timing... i really felt bad after that... ewan ko ba... honestly, we had one day practice of that song talaga.. kaya rush... and wala pa kong kopya nung kanta kaya siguro nagkaganun... pero it was still my fault.. i should have practiced more, kahit na abala ako nun kasi i was making rounds sa buong skul dahil ako yung OD... oh well... i almost quit the band because of depression...

tapos, yung Christmas party na ulit.. grabe, we didn't jam at all before that day.. kasi nagkaroon ng internal conflicts.. hahaha... kaya kahit ano na lang.. we performed 2 songs.. A FAVOR HOUSE ATLANTIC by coheed and cambria and the darkness' I BELIEVE IN A THING CALLED LOVE... we were supposed to perform jeepney uli, kaso dalawang songs lang daw.. ayun.. nadali na naman kami sa pagpili ng kanta.. a favor house atlantic is a great song for me, pero hindi natripan nung mga tao e.. well what can we do diba... buti nga nabuhay sila ng konti dun sa the darkness, i really strained my vocal chords just to sing the whole song.. mahirap tlaga siya.. they told me okay daw yung performance.. but i wasnt that sure.. when you're singing kasi, hindi mo alam kung ano yung labas at tunog.. kaya mahirap.

then the battle of the bands... badtrip nga e.. hindi ako nakasama nun... dahil sa ACP tactical inspection at marami pang emosyonal na bagay nun... hmm ano kaya yun??:D wahaha... nevertheless, i was very proud of them..:D ang galing ng 11th hour nun.. they got second pa nga e..:) they performed LUNES by sponge cola and NAHUHULOG by sandwich...

tapos eto.. this was our last performance ever.. nung teacher's day... and again.. haay.. wrong choice of song... i urged the guys that we should play ELESI by rivermaya because it was easier to relate it to teachers than youll be safe here... ay nako.. it turns out the 2nd year band performed it and they got all cheers... naalala ko pa nga sabi ni drei nun... "tsong sabi na nga ba dapat yan e.. benta.." he wasn't blaming me. but i blamed myself... when we performed elesi, we got cheers pero not as much.. hahaha... hindi kasi alam yun ng mga bata pa sa elementarya... nakakainis ka kasi jurmane e. hindi mo ba naisip yun??? haay nako...

and that's it.. we were supposed to have a gig before grad, pero we had problems.. kaya hindi natuloy. i was hoping for another one during the long break.. but nothing happened.. i did all that i could do to have another jamming session pero wala... i guess everybody's been pretty busy... kasi sa monday mikel,paulo and drei will be starting class na... so ayun. i think that's the end of us already.. sad..

But i never regret joining the band..:) kahit iba iba kami ng ugali at kagustuhan., we pulled it off even for a while..:D saka my bandmates aren't just bandmates.. they're my friends too..:) paulo,mikel,mikes,jomie,drei... and of course, chrissy and djay (whom i still consider as part of 11th hour).. THANK YOU GUYS..:D God bless sa college..:P alam ko namang malabo na mabasa nyo to, pero i wanted to put it na rin..:D hehehe..:D

TRIVIA: did you know that eleventh hour is the title of one of the songs of jars of clay??:D hehehe..:) wala lang..:D

btw sky, i put song lines at the end... kasi yun yung pinapakinggan ko nun..:D hehehe..:D i miss you dear..:D

"damn, the way that you scream girl..." -kjwan-

pffft..

2005-05-21T06:34:00.000+08:00

i didnt get accepted... too much erasures or just plain wrong... baaah, badtrip.

"gusto mo bang... sumama..." -eraserheads-

kitchie overload.:D hahaha..:P

2005-05-20T17:10:00.000+08:00

hahaha..:D grabe gising pa ko hanggang ngayon..:D may naginvite sakin sa chat ng mga kitchie fanatics..:P grabe hard core fans, talo pa ko..:)) wahahaha..:D ano ba yan..:D ayan tuloy gising pa ko..:D hehehe..:) di din ako agad natulog kasi tinapos ko yung suntok sa buwan sa guitars..:) haay..sana tama na talaga yun!!!:D hehehe..:D oh well...:D ang hirap kasi ng upstring saka downstring e... ano kaya maganda next na matutunan??? bulong kaya??:D wahaha sige ba...:) hehehe..:D

"di ko to gusto, pero wag kang lalayo..." -session road-

wala lang...:P

2005-05-20T07:31:00.000+08:00

hehehe..:D wala lang akong magawa..:D hehehe..:P text niyo naman ako o..:P hehehe..:D nagiging paulit-ulit na ang mga pangyayari sa buhay ko..:D hehehe..:D

"pano mahuhulog sakin ang isang matayog na bituing ikaw..." -rivermaya-

here i go again..:)

2005-05-19T15:14:00.000+08:00

hehehe..:D please comment..:D hehehe..:) actually matagal ko na rin to sinulat, ngayon ko lang pinost..:D hehehe..:)

SA BAWAT ARAW NA GINAWA

Siguro di halata
Matagal na kitang minamasid
Padaan-daan lang ako
Upang hindi ako mahalata

Ewan ko ba kung bakit
Laging ikaw ang nasa isip ko
Ano bang meron sayo
At damdamin ko’y nabihag mo

Ano ba yan
Ito yata’y delekado na
Baka mamaya
Mahalata mo na talaga

Nagkakasakit sa kakaisip
Nahihilo sa kakatingin
Nababaliw sa kakatibok
Ng pusong ayaw magpapigil

Isang beses sa library
Nagbabasa kang mag-isa
Ako kaya’y magpakilala
Upang ito’y matapos na

Papunta na sa mesa
Ngunit ika’y tumingin sa akin
Naku, nanigas na ako
At napatitig na lang sa iyo

Ano ba yan
Ito yata’y delekado na
Baka mamaya
Mahalata mo na talaga

Nagkakasakit sa kakaisip
Nahihilo sa kakatingin
Nababaliw sa kakatibok
Ng pusong ayaw magpapigil

Alam kong walang pag-asa
Na maging tayo balang-araw
Sa nangyayari ngayon
Ha! hanggang tingin na lang ako

Pero ayos lang iyon sakin
Hindi na ako magrereklamo
Okay na ang makita ka
Sa bawat araw na ginawa…

wooo...

2005-05-19T14:00:00.000+08:00

hehehe..:D i can't think of a title...:D hahaha kaya wooo... na lang..:D hehehe..:D well, my guitar lessons went okay... na sana... i was learning suntok sa buwan when the no.4 string broke.. damn.. now i have to buy pa.. sheesh... did i pluck to hard??? hahaha hay nako..:D

the letter for the dorm was delivered earlier... haay.. ang lapit ko na tlaga pumasok.. im excited pero siyempre ayoko pa rin sana..:D

oo nga pala, salamat sa mga taong nagcocomment sa blog ko..:P especially dun sa songs part..:D hehehe..:) i love you guys..:D i promise to make more songs para may mabasa pa kayo..:D and sana malagyan ko rin sila lahat ng tono and gitara..:D hehehe..:P

"but everyday's a holiday... when i'm near to you.." -miss kitchie nadal-

nothing much...:)

2005-05-18T16:27:00.000+08:00

oh well..:D nothing much has been up lately..:D guitars pa rin.. may konting improvement...:) bukas may lessons uli ako..:P sana matapos ko na yung pinapagawa sakin ng teacher ko para makamove on na ko..:D hehehe..:D nalagyan ko na ng tono yung ibang kanta...:P hehehe..:) im very happy with it..:D although hindi talaga ko sure kung maganda ba (kaya comment kayo please!!!:D i'd be very grateful!!!:D) i still have to let people hear it..:D kapag medyo magaling na ko i'll put in some guitars..:P hehehe..:D grabe f na f ko na!!!:D hehehe wala naman masama magambisyon e...:P i hope to meet musically inclined people din sa ateneo..:P sayang naman yung mga nacompose kong kanta kung hindi malalagyan ng ibat ibang instruments diba???:D hehehe..:P i'm not saying na im leaving 11th hour na... pero kasi, the guys don't seem interested to jam anymore.. e ako pa naman sobrang eager ko ngayon... so bahala na lang..:) hehehe..:D

naku i gotta get some sleep na.. .pero teka!!:D laughtrip nga e..:) natulog na ko from 8-9 pm kanina..:P pero i woke up to watch smallville..:D nahook up uli ako e..:D hehehe..:D i kinda like lois' personality there..:D hehehe nasawa na kasi ko kay lana e..:P hehehe..:D anyway, i hope next week's episode will be as good as this week's...:D hehehe..:D

"tulog na, hayaan na muna natin sila..." -sugarfree-

and still another one..:D

2005-05-17T13:50:00.000+08:00

eto pa..:P sana basahin niyo pa rin..:D

HARD DECISIONS

A battery can power you up
But it can be drained, in the end
Money can buy you many things
But you can run out of it, really now

You wanna dance
But it’s no use
Your legs get so tangled
It’s getting you confused

The road you travel is a rocky path
Do you really wanna go through it

A pen can write with its strokes
But the ink fades, yes my friend
Music can get you going
But it’s only temporary, oh well

You wanna sing
But it’s no use
Your voice always cracks up
It keeps bringing you down

The road you travel is a rocky path
Do you really wanna go through it

The road you travel is a rocky path
Are you willing to take the risk?

another one...

2005-05-17T13:35:00.000+08:00

oh well... here's another one..:D hehehe..:P

NAKARAAN

Lagi kong naririnig sa iba
Kalimutan na ang nakaraan
Wala kang mapapala diyan
Sabi sakin ng kapatid ko
Ano bang pinoproblema mo
Napakarami pang iba diyan

Siguro nga’y tama sila
Ngunit wala akong magawa
Kundi tanungin ang sarili’t sumigaw

Hindi ko maintindihan
Bakit pa kailangang matandaan
Ang mga pinagsamahan
Sa ating masayang nakaraan

Lagi ko pa ring naaalala
Sa kalye’y madalas magtawanan
Magkahawak ang mga kamay
Kitang-kita ko pa rin
Ang ngiti mong kay ganda
Sana ay hindi na nagkawalay

Ano nga bang gagawin
Gusto nang limutin ito
Nguni’t ang puso’y ayaw pa ring bumitaw

Hindi ko maintindihan
Bakit pa kailangang matandaan
Ang mga pinagsamahan
Sa ating masayang nakaraan

Siguro nga’y tama sila
Panahon lang ang kailangan
Balang-araw matatahimik
Ang pusong sawi sa pag-ibig
Pero sa ngayon ay…

Hindi ko maintindihan
Bakit pa kailangang matandaan
Ang mga pinagsamahan
Sa ating masayang nakaraan

Hindi ko talaga alam
Bakit pa kailangang balik-balikan
Ang mga pinagdaanan
Sa ating masayang nakaraan

Bakit ba…
Naaalala pa rin kita…

Please leave a comment again..:P kahit flame okay lang..:P alam ko namang newbie ako e..:D

the light..:D

2005-05-17T05:57:00.000+08:00

Contemplating in the dark
He is all alone
So many questions
He doesn’t know the answers to
What has become of him
What has he done
There’s no turning back now
Here is where he stands

But still he searches for
Something that can save him
Who knows maybe someday
The light will shine again
Although he wishes he
Could see much clearer
Who knows maybe someday
The light will shine again

Every time she tries to change
She fails in the end
Her thoughts quite unclear
She feels lost in what’s happening
And now, what should she do
To get back up
How will she find her way
Is there any escape

But still she hopes for
Something that can lift her
High up into the sky
Leaving those things behind
Although she wishes she
Could see much clearer
Who knows maybe someday
The light will shine again

The world is dragging us down
We don’t think we can last
In a battle with victory so far away
We feel like finally giving up

But still we search for
Something that can save us
Maybe redemption
Is what we really need
Although we wish we
Could attain it sooner
We just have to wait and see...

please comment about the song..:P thanks..:D

almost perfect.

2005-05-15T15:47:00.000+08:00

it was almost perfect really.. the goldilockses and i were having a hell of a time (as usual) at starbucks after having watched another horror flick... and then suddenly, some smoking stranger starts a conversation with us.. babae siya ha.. well sort of.. basta.. i was near where she was seated.. shet yung usok talaga... now i fully understand passive smoking.. grabe.. sabi ko nga kay cam at nn umalis na kami e.. pero padating na kasi sina ritz kaya we decided to stay anyway... o edi yan, dumating na sila.. tapos.. bigla na lang ako naBV... maybe its because of the smoke.. grabe talaga e.. basta i excused myself and went to the comfort room... pagbalik ko andun na si kat, betsie, ritz, djay and cha... edi okay na sana diba??? not... my mom called and said kung pwede na daw ba kaming pumuntang sm kasi may bibilhin pa na stuff ko for the dorm... naBV na naman ako... kasi dapat 630 pa ko susunduin.. e mga 510 pa lang nun... ayun sabi ko sige na nga... haaay... i know i know.. my mom had the good intention... pero wrong timing nga lang.. haay... i was depressed kasi i really missed betsie and kat talaga.. kasi i havent had the chance to talk to them that much... ang dami ko pang gusto ikwento and stuff and siyempre si ritz din... tapos kamustahin ko sna yung mga guys... to my angel red and mcp, im sorry guys... siguro sanay na kayo sakin.. hehehe thanks talaga..

And please, wag niyo na sabihin na may next time pa naman... yeah next time will happen in about a year... hahaha..

Buti na lang nakabili ako ng 3 rivermaya na cd at ng popsicle mag na si miss kitchie yung cover... kung hindi todo badtrip na talaga ko. And damn, plucking is pretty hard... pero kelangan ko talaga... song writing and guitars --- road to success..:) hahaha.. hay nako ewan ko ba.

again!:D

2005-05-09T05:08:00.000+08:00

hehehe..:P sa wakas naganahan uli ako magsulat dito..:P hehehehe..:) oh well..:P hehehe..:) wala naman masyadong kwento e..:P im still doing chores and stuff, pero my GSIS test is finally over..:P hahaha sana maging scholar ako..:) hehehe..:D also, nagsswimming lessons rin ako..:P 2 meetings na nga lang tapos na ko e..:P hehehe..:) kahit hindi masyado advance yung natutunan ko sa swimming, at least pwede ko na sabihin na marunong na ko lumangoy ngayon..:P hehehe!:D yey!!!:D

After my swimming lessons (7-8 am), i usually play basketball with other manresan peeps..:P sa tahanan kasi yun e..:P hehehe..:D kainis nga e, hindi na ko gano marunong sumaksak, puro tres na lang kaya ko gawin..:P hehehe oh well..:P kaya nga tinigil ko na yung pangarap ko dati na mapunta sa PBA e = hopeless case..:) hahaha..:D

Im having guitar lessons na rin..:P i know i know, marami sa inyo magsasabi na mas maganda self-study..:) pero para sakin, mas natututo na ko ngayon..:P hehehe..:D sana gumaling ako magitara..:P hehehe..:) para pwede na ko bumili ng electric!!:D hahaha f n f ko na talaga..:P hehehe..:D saka im starting to write songs na rin..:P nahihirapan nga lang ako sa tono, pero okay lang..:P 4th song na yung ginagawa ko ngayon..:P hehehe..:D btw, im listening to hale's cd right now..:P astig sila..:D hehehe..:P mellow rock kung baga..:D

pero siyempre, rivermaya pa rin ako..:P hahaha..:D grabe nung concert (april 16), hahaha..:P nagwawala na kami ni sweetie sa kakatalon..:P hehehe..:D tapos sinisigaw rin namin yung lyrics nung kanta..:P hahahaha ang daming tao sa araneta..:P hahaha..:D okay naman yung juana and sponge cola performances..:P hehehe..:D si miss kitchie ang galing magperform!!!:D hehehe..:P parang recorded yung dating nung pagkanta niya..:P basta elibs ako sa kanya..:P hahaha..:D may angal???::D hahaha..:D On top of all of them of course, rivermaya..:P ang galing ng stage presence ni rico blanco!!:D hehehe..:P tapos ang galing din nina mike, japs (go manresa!!!:D hahaha) at mark..:P hehehe..:P saludo ako sa inyo!!!:D

Hay nako, ang lapit na magpasukan..:( june 7 na... haay... one good thing about it is magkakabaon na ko uli..:P todo tipid ako sa admu promise!!:D para naman may pambili pa ko ng mga cd weekly..:P hahaha..:D sorry ha, music buff ako e..:P hehehe..:D cd lang naman ang pinagagastusan ko e..:P hehehe..:D bad trip nga yung emi e, nacancel yung full volume concert... haay...

Basta mga admu peeps, kita-kita na lang tayo sa orsem..:P ritz,trix,kei,ise,iya,pam,moreen,chiket,marian,mikes!!!:D hehehe..:P hope i didnt miss anybody..:P hehehe :D excited na ko!!!:D

tinatamad..:P

2005-04-26T09:25:00.000+08:00

pasensya na at walang posts dito, tinatamad kasi ako e..:P wahaha..:D

chubs, natime mo ba??:D hahaha..:)

2005-04-16T15:05:00.000+08:00

aba!!!:D hehehehe..:) i had my longest phone call ever..:P 4 hours and 10 minutes...:P hehehe ang saya talaga kausap ni chubs...:D hehehe..:) well yun lang, gotta run!!!:D heehee..:)

gbf/barkada

2005-04-15T14:44:00.000+08:00

ahahaha i just read my gbf's blog site and meron na kong conclusion: isa siyang manggagaya..:) hehehehe...:) joke lang dear..:D hehehe.:D biruin mo, no ym na rin???:D hahahaha..:) ayos lang yan, may 2 bawas na sa mga nag-oonline..:) hehehe..:D at yes, natawa ako sa bestfriend blues..:) hehehe..:D its so funny talaga..:) pero it wasnt funny when it was still on.. it was sad.. hehehe sheesh... hahaha!:D buti tapos na..:) *hugs gbf and sky friend* anyway, ayos at nagupdate na si gbf..:) may mababasa na ko uli..:) hehehe..:) yung iba kasi hindi na rin naguupdate e.. (except si angel red addict!!!:D hahaha hindi na lang salita sulat na rin!!!:D hehehe you go girl!!!:)

tatlo lang ang guys sa batch natin na alam kong may blog..:) hehehe ako, si eric at nico..:) hahaha at si nico pa tamad magpost..:) hahahaha!:D sino pa kilala niyo??? meron pa ba??? just curious..:)

my barkada..:) i miss you na sobra...

Julius (best bud)
I dont know what this guy's been up to... hehehe alam ko lang nagbabadminton sila ni nico... hehehe..:) pero actually, nakakamiss talaga yung times na pumupunta ako sa bahay nila..:( haay... and nagliliwaliw kami sa phase 1..:) hehehe...:) im gonna give this guy a call na nga... Last time na tinawagan ko tulog e.. great.. basta, sana makalabas na tayo uli!!!:D

Nico (best bud 2)
Hay si nico..:) Gwapo na nga payat na rin ngayon!!!:D hahaha papa!!!:D hehehe..:) badminton at diet combo kasi to e..:) hehehe...:) bihira ko na rin siya makausap e...:( haay... hindi na kasi ko nagyym... *feels guilty* hahahaha di bale, tatawagan ko na rin lang to... hehehe... naku ang dami ko ng tatawagan..:) hehe!!:D Sama ko sa inyoni vidadi ha!!!:D hehehe..:)

Gatchi (chess master)
Gatchi!!!:D hehehe...:) last time na nakausap ko to... tagal na.. and we were discussing courses ..:) GO gatchi!!!:D sana makapili ka ng magandang course sa alinmang school..:) youll do great..:D hehehehe!:D Nga pala, sama ka kung may barkada thing ha... hehehe!!!:D kelangan kompleto tayo dun!!!:D tatawagan ko na rin to!!!:D hahaha they just keep on coming..:)

JM (monkey friend)
uy si monkey!!!:D hehehe peace tayo ha...:) ayan si JM!!!:D ayos na kaya internet nito??:D hehehe gaya gaya ka!!! sa mingoys din kayo kumain nung grad..:) hahaha!:D basta sana talaga matuloy yung barkada thing, pinagpaalam ko na to sa mami niya e..:) sayang naman kung hindi matuloy...:) basta, kita kita na lang!!!:D

The rest: hehehe..:) siyempre sina gino (drama boy), si buboy (laging online.. hahaha), si diego (lover boy.. magpakasal na kayo!!!), si eric (hehehe nice blog you got there..:) at yung iba ko pang katropa kagaya ni marvin at bas (si cough syrup at drama buddy ko!!!:) hahahaha lovelorn rules guys!!!:) hahahaha!:D

hehehe next time na yung female friends ko...:) ang haba na e..:) hehehe..:)

ym therapy...:)

2005-04-15T14:05:00.000+08:00

hehehe its working..:D and you guys said i was an addict...:) hehehe..:) its been a week now since i last used ym..:) *damn proud* hahahaha...:) wala lang, im testing myself..:) before i know it, i would have forgotten ym existed..:) hehehe..:)

amazed!!!:D

2005-04-15T14:00:00.000+08:00

hehehe...:) im still not over the fact that there are so many words in this world...:) Sa english pa nga lang sobrang dami na e...:) hehehe, nagbasa kasi ako ng reviewer tapos ang daming words dun..:) hehehe...:) words like corpulent, tantalizing, vainglory..:) hahaha stuff like that..:) it makes me wanna read the dictionary tuloy..:) hahahaha promise..:D and i wanna learn a new language..:D french kaya??? o kaya german..:) hehehe pwede rin spanish kaso everybody can learn that..:D hehehe..:) ewan ko ba..:D

its been a long day...:)

2005-04-14T14:01:00.000+08:00

hehehehe...:) ill tell you all about it tomorrow...:D

How???

2005-04-12T13:50:00.000+08:00

Must occupy self with other things... *sigh* the question is... how???

whew...

2005-04-11T23:23:00.000+08:00

reminder #1 = nakakapagod magdilig ng halaman at humila ng hose. hehehehe... umaga pa lang pagod na ko.. hehehe.:)

ym no more ???

2005-04-11T13:45:00.000+08:00

oo nga pala, ill abstain (rather try to.. hahaha!:D) from ym for a while... im gonna see kung gano ko katagal magagawa yun!!!:D hahahaha..:) mom's been saying naaddict na raw ako e..:) hehehehe..:) si ace kasi e, inabot kami ng 200 am nung isang beses..:) hahahaha joke lang dear!!!:D anyway, lets see..:) hahaha!:D

im still alive..:) hehehe..:)

2005-04-11T13:38:00.000+08:00

we went to sm today primarily because my sister needed to get some of her pants altered... we arrived there before lunch, so we went to alter to fit... habang sinusukatan si ate, gusto ko sana magarcade, kaso wala akong dalang pera..:) hahahaha!:D neway, after nun, we ate sa ichiban??? hehehe basta its a japanese fastfood.. hehehe, the food was okay, but fukuya and tokyo tokyo are still better i suppose..:) While we were in the foodcourt, napansin ko na may beer stall dun... i was surprised.. they were really selling beer.. ngek, e pano kung may naginuman at naglasing dun diba??? sheesh... ayan na-off topic tuloy ako..:) hehehe..:) ayun..:) we then went to buy clothes for my mom and some stuff sa hardware, kasi we needed to kill time dahil 3 pm pa daw makukuha yung damit ni ate.. hehehe im really bored when im in a mall..:) hahaha...:) haay.. after nun, we went back to alter to fit... guess what??? hindi pa daw ready. 430 pa daw... hay naku... so we ate again (hahaha what do you care??:) we are a healthy family.. hehehe:) sa almon marina..:) sarap iced tea nila.. hehehe wala lang..:) ayun... finally, nakuha na namin and i went home... oo nga pala, kinwentuhan ko rin si ate tungkol sa full house.. pati hide and seek... (no!!! *screams nn and camgee*.. hahahaha!:D ang gulo!!!:D) hahahaha! sorry a, wala ng magawa e..:) hehehehe!:D i watched some WWE sa bahay, then i studied chem and physics.. aray ko po... masakit sa utak... pero i need to pass that test!!!:D hehehehe...:) kaya i end up writing this mga 1030 pm na..:) hahahaha!:D

hay nako...

2005-04-10T10:27:00.000+08:00

my head still hurts..:( *sigh*... i've been thinking about so many things these past few days... i'm tired...

argh...

2005-04-09T15:10:00.000+08:00

my head hurts... yun lang ang masasabi ko. hahahaha.

i love mango cream pie and angel red!!!:D

2005-04-08T12:58:00.000+08:00

heehee...:) im really happy i got the chance to go out with them...:) sobra!!!:D ang saya, kahit tatlo lang kami nina cam at nn, ang saya saya!!!:D hehehehe...:) ang dami naming kwento sa isa't isa...:) tagal na kasi namin di masyado nagkakasama e..:) pero dahil sa kanina, nastrenghten pa lalo yung friendship naming tatlo...:) thanks for everything guys..:) i had so much fun..:P ulitin ulit natin a!!!:D heehee...:) pero wag na hide and seek... please... hahaha mga dears, may naintindihan ba kayo???:P hahaha ang labo!!!:D pero nood uli tayo ng horror..:) gusto ko ulit marinig yung tawa ni nn saka yung choking ni camgee...:) hahahahaha!:D basta guys, yung ym sessions natin ha..:) iset natin yung time!!!:D

Mabuhay ang goldilockses and the bear...:) I love you guys...:)

...

2005-04-07T04:34:00.001+08:00

kung sino mang may problema tungkol sakin, sana kausapin niyo ko ng deretsyahan... ayokong nalalaman ko pa kung saan-saan yung mga bagay na gusto niyo sabihin... okay??? mabait ako kung mabait, pero wag niyo ko abusuhin... A bear doesn't have unlimited patience and understanding... they're bound to run out soon.

hassled bear!!!

2005-04-07T03:18:00.000+08:00

its just noon and yet badtrip na ko kaagad..:( nakakainis naman kasi e...:( haay, this is definitely not my day...:(

depression

2005-04-06T13:21:00.000+08:00

depressed depressed depressed depressed depressed depressed depressed.. yan lang ang alam kong emotion sa ngayon. DEPRESSION... *sigh*

yey!:D

2005-04-06T01:04:00.000+08:00

hehehe...:) angel red said yes!!!:D heehee...:) now i just have to wait for m-c-p to respond...:) Sana payagan siya magtown..:) hahaha!:D Or else i'll be stuck in the house again... studying and doing household chores... oh well...

wenk...

2005-04-05T12:22:00.000+08:00

slash april 7 atc from the list...

summer blast..:)

2005-04-04T15:55:00.000+08:00

hehehe. contrary to the title, my summer's pretty boring..:) hahahaha, BUT, i have many lakads naman..:) heehee..:)

April 7 - ATC (with gbf and sky friend)
April 16 - Concert of Rivermaya (with sweetie and dear friend)
April 19 - Enchanted Kingdon (with chubs' barkada and their bills)
no date - badminton (with nico and julius)
no date - ATC (with barkada and tropa)
no date - ATC (with mango cream pie and angel red)
May - Canyon Woods (with barkada and tropa)

hahaha dami noh??:P hehehe..:) baka may dumagdag pa e, i dont know..:) sana!!:D hehehe..:) as of now, im helping my mother with the chores..:) wala kasi maid namin for one month, so its work time for me...:) haay....:) okay naman e..:) although i need to study too..:) im gonna take a scholarship test on April 23..:) I hope i get that..:) I aint that smart compared to other brain people in the country..:) hehehe!:D

I am so in love with broken sonnet right now..:) Hale rocks!!!:D hehehe..:) its really a good good song..:) with good lyrics as well...:) haay.. i miss my friends and classmates... i cant wait to go out with them na!!!:D

Later im gonna meet up with gbf for the portfolio... poor mrs. p... di pa namin nagagawa e... kaso di ko lam kung tuloy yun.. gbf's not replying to either me or her pf.. i wonder what's happening.. *sigh* ( yes i used later because its already 1:00 am..:) hahaha!)

thePope died today..:( bless his soul...:) i hope they'll appoint a good Pope... or else we are all doomed..:(

thats about it...:) my first entry for about two weeks already..:) hehehe..:) and oh, those who wanna comment anonymously..:) you can do so now..:) ive changed my settings... *whew*.. hehehe!:D

bored bored bored...

2005-03-24T16:20:00.000+08:00

you know what, ever since vacation started, I have not been doing that much... Im so bored.... Even blogging has lost its thrill... hahaha!:D no one reads it anyway so...:) hahaha!:D Well, i miss my best friends, barkada, classmates, batchmates etc...:( haaay... its holy week... We are going to san jose batangas tomorrow to visit my lolo there...:) I think we'll spend the night over...:)

also, i have decided to finally take up management honors in admu... It's gonna be tough, really... nanghihinayang ako sa intarmed ko sa U.P. pero maybe i'm not that fit to be a doctor...: haay... course choosing is so hard.

Im excited with my EK outing on April 15!!!:D weeee!:) (chubs, panda bear, angel red, betsie, may, madz and salby... together with cha and djay) heehee....:) I can't wait.:D

:) part 2

2005-03-13T11:41:00.000+08:00

HI!!:) woah..:) hehehehe..:) nothing else to do so i'm writing again...:) Well, i woke up at about 930 in the morning...:) After that, I helped my mother with my sister's schoolwork... wow, im doing a task for 3rd year Management engineering students!!!:) weeee...:) its brain torture though... whew, im so glad i've done my part already...:)

This afternoon, I had text sessions with danny (nn -mango cream pie) and benny (camgee)...:) I had so much fun..:) hahaha!:) hehehehe..:) I miss mcp... di na kasi kami nag-uusap e... oh well...
Hahaha, i just remembered something... Nakinig ako sa mga oldies ngayong araw na to..:) hahaha beatles rock!! bwahahaha, no kidding..:) Now i know why my dad loves their music..:) hehehehe..:)

Just an hour ago, i got the chance to chat with agats...:) hehehe, which was a good thing..:) She gave me the idea of having a scrapbook for people to sign..:) hehehe..:) that's why im gonna make one..:) i think a folder and bond papers will do..:) its the messages that will count...

Im feeling the goodbye spirit now...:( haaay..:( just one more week..:(

:)

2005-03-12T12:40:00.000+08:00

this day was full of mixed emotions... we had our recollection...:) early in the morning, i was kind of depressed.. ( i dont know why but i was, I kept on crying) it was a good thing our retreat masters had wonderful things to say, which helped me to become a bit okay...:) then there was the activity...:) Brother Josh gave us 7 papers with different messages written in each one of them...:) It was up to us to give them to 7 different people who means a lot to us...:) I wanted to give more than 7, but it was not possible...:( Anyway, i cried again when i received and read the 23 messages that were given to me...:) I didn't know i meant so much to such a number of people...:) I felt glad that many of my friends remembered me, and so tears of joy rolled down my cheeks... AGAIN..(Im such a cry baby..:) Inspite of the many problems i have, i felt happier than I've felt for days... Thank you guys...:) Ill manage to repay you somehow...:) Thats why i love each and everyone of you...:) Thanks for all the support.

After the activity, I felt sad again...:( I don't know why...:( sigh, i dont know what to do anymore... Later that day, my academic honors were announced to me..:) I experienced joy, for i got 13 awards all in all, special mention to the Valedictorian award... But that was only momentary... the sadness that i am feeling just wont go away...:(

I hope it goes away na...:( I dont want to live like this anymore...:( But still, i know that everything will be allright soon...:) With the help of my family and friends...:) I know i can...:) And of course, GOD.:) I will do this for all of you...:)

what a day...

2005-03-06T15:12:00.001+08:00

this was a boring day indeed... haaay... im so tired of always doing the same stuff.. earlier this day i contemplated about many things...

dear Lord, please help me fix up my life... may i live with happiness and content... i beg of you... i cant do this anymore.. its just so hard... please be there for me, for at times i feel so alone... A used teddy bear...

I wonder when ill find a fellow teddy bear who'll hug me tight when I'm lost and say: "its all right my dear... you'll be safe here.." how i wish she existed... then i can be saved from this madness...

All these grades and achievements, i will trade
In order for me to be saved...

Call me weird or something, but hey, that's how i feel...

oh well... here we go again...

2005-03-04T20:26:00.000+08:00

well, this day was very tiring... El fili play, emotional breakdown.. very nice combo!!!:D hahahaha..:( haaay....

graduations so near... my eyes are gonna be filled with tears when that day comes..

stressed out

2005-02-26T20:33:00.000+08:00

i cant believe this... its just so hard.. why am i left to do the work?! i hate this... i want to rest..:(

Happy happy happy!!!:)

2005-02-24T23:02:00.000+08:00

Im so happy today..:) Really...:) Even though im so tired and i got a bunch of low grades in school... hehehe..:) I suppose its because i passed intarmed in U.P... Now where will i study?? UP or Ateneo?? *sigh*... But that is just one of the things.. Something just happened to me.. It's something that I've just read... Those gentle words really inspired me to become a better person. Problems won't bug me from now on, because i know I got all that i need already..:) And that is something that I will treasure...:)

lacking sleep...

2005-02-15T21:20:00.001+08:00

sheesh.. too much work... gotta rest but cant... *sigh*

lacking sleep...

2005-02-15T21:20:00.000+08:00

Satisfaction...

2005-02-14T15:00:00.000+08:00

Valentine's day. I should be sad right now you know. No special someone to be with. But no... Just knowing that you hold a special place in many people's hearts is good enough for me. I have now accepted that i am more needed as a good friend by many than as an average lover by one. Who knows, maybe ill follow the footsteps of those ADORE guys in school..:) hehehehe! Could you imagine me as a priest? Because i can't. HAHAHA!

I love You God, thanks for everything. Please guide me in the right path and may I live according to Your will.:)

LOSERS RULE!!:)

2005-02-07T21:48:00.000+08:00

Naku, magpoprom na naman... Sa mga sawi diyan, sama-sama tayo a...:) HEHEHE!

Her name is NoelI have a dream about herShe rings my bell.I got gym class in half an hourand oh how she rocksin Keds and tube socks.But she doesn't know who I am.And she doesn't give a damn about meCuz I'm just a teenage dirtbag, babyYeah I'm just a teenage dirtbag, babyListen to Iron Maiden, baby...with me. Ooh.Her boyfriend's a dickHe brings a gun to schoolHe'd simply kick my ass if he knew the truth.He lives on my blockand he drives an IROKAnd he doesn't know who I amAnd he doesn't give a damn about mecuz I'm just a teenage dirtbag babyYeah, I'm just a teenage dirtbag baby.Listen to Iron Maiden, baby...with me. Ooh.Ooh yeah...dirtbag.No she doesn't know what she's missin'.man I feel like moldIt's prom night and I am lonely lo and beholdShe's walkin' over to me this must be fakeMy lip starts to shakeHow does she know who I am?Why does she give a damn about me?I've got two tickets to Iron Maiden, baby.Come with me Friday, don't say maybe.I'm just a teenage dirtbag, baby...like you. ooh.ooh yeah...dirtbag.No she doesn't know what she's missin'

Wahahaha ang labo noh??:P hehehe like my mind right now...

sounds like me..:)

2005-02-05T15:05:00.000+08:00

Ayaw na nyang bumangon
Sa kama lang maghapon
Mukha nyay parang langit
Na malapit nang umabon
Ayaw na nyang manalig
sa tunay na pag-ibigB
akit daw ba kay bilis
mawala ng kilig

Habang bumbaha ng luha di na nya napupuna
Na mayron pang saysay ang buhay
Di nya lang napapansin
Umaandar ang kanyang dramachine

Ayaw na nyang mabuhay
Mundoy wala ng kulay
Dahan dahan puso nyay bumibigay
Wag na raw syang umasa
Wag nang magmakaawa
Wala na syang magagawa
Tapos na ang lahat

Lahat tayoy nasasaktan
Madalas naiiwanan
Di alam kung bakit ba nangyayari yan
Pero wag kang magpapadala
Kung madapa bumangon ka
Buhay moy tuloy pa rin
Wag kang tumulad sa akin

Habang bumabaha ng luha
Di ko na napupuna
Na mayron pang saysay ang buhay
Hinding hindi ko napapansin
Kung umaandar ang aking dramachine

Dramachine...

tired again...

2005-02-05T14:14:00.000+08:00

later ill be going to juju's debu... Im kind of excited... I hope itll be okay..:) Well, tomorrow, ill go to the open house in Ateneo.. Im really looking forward to studying at Ateneo... In other words, leave my dark past behind..:) To start anew, without those damn issue makers..:) hehehe..:) There, id be nobody (thank goodness)...:)

Got loads of school work to do... Im sick of doing them.. I envy those who dont care about their grades at all, so they can just bum around whenever they want too.. But alas, in all things, I know that you cant have the best... the things that you need the most..:) Ive learned to with it.. Call me pessimistic, but hey, if you know what ive been through lately, youd be able too see that ive been through my own version of hell...

new beginning....

2005-02-02T22:12:00.000+08:00

hehehehe, from now on, I think ill be okay...:) I just believe Im gonna be... Marami na ko natutunang stuff lately..:) Kaya i thank everyone who has helped me.. my barkada and all the people who have supported me..:) Im gonna improve for you guys... Life must go on... and so it shall..:) HA!

sigh....

2005-02-02T00:00:00.000+08:00

this day was kind of okay... I mean, I was kinda sad, but still... I found reasons to smile... I wish it will be always like this... I want to enjoy life.. But sometimes I feel that its now impossible... My dear friends, please dont leave me. I'm just having a tough moment in my life.. Thanks..:)

my sadness outlet...

2005-01-30T14:31:00.000+08:00

i think starting now ill always write in this blog... It might help me release the bad feelings that i get in each and everyday of my life... Sigh, thank goodness for this blog... I know it will always be my friend, for it only listens.. and never talks... Weird, but true.:)

thoughts...

2005-01-30T14:20:00.000+08:00

Im still thinking about many things at the moment... I really ruined my life this time around... If i could just go back and time, i really would... But i know that isnt possible... I know this is the way its gonna be forever.. Although I know that im fighting a losing battle, I still pray at night... I still pray that somehow, I can fly once again... My blades are broken and shattered, but in time, i hope it will be repaired and be brought back to its majestic form... I just wish it would occur sooner, because I dont know how long I can last living this empty life of mine... With no purpose, with no will, with no reason to go on...

leave me alone

2005-01-29T21:39:00.000+08:00

wow, i hear these two entries in my blog have been very popular lately... Some people happened to locate my blog and read my entries without any permission at all.. Well, i guess thats okay.. But why did you have to make stories out of it??? Why didnt you leave me alone? Gimme a break guys, if any of you visit this, please read what i have to say...

many things have happened since my last entry... I assure you... Before, i had everything... Now, i have nothing... I know i know its my fault... I messed up my own life... But i just wanna thank all of you guys for helping me mess it a little bit further.. I owe you all... Somehow i must repay... How, I think? How can i repay you for treating my life as a source of issue??... Ah, i know... Im gonna start living my life in order to please you guys... Ill do everything that you want to see from now on... Im sorry for ruining your future speculations about whats happening to my life... Hahaha im a bad motherfucker anyway..:) hahahaha, all of you agree right?? you always have before.. Dont tell me youve softened since then? Then its settled..

Here's to Jurmane, the guy who made the biggest mistake of his life... I just hope i can survive this remaining month... Im tired, im beat, im lost... Ayan, panalo na kayo... I give up.

here it is... my next entry

2004-12-31T17:33:00.000+08:00

I would just like to say that i am an extremely lazy person... This is just my second entry.. Whew, well, im happy that im on it anyway..:). First thing: i have gained 10 pounds... Would you believe that??? I mean, in less than two weeks??? hahaha, well, actualy, im still not that worried..:) I'll be back to normal when classes resume... Im doing sit-ups again... And probably, stress is gonna make me thinner again... It always does.. All those lunchless days.. (Right trix?? wahahaha.. Its just like talking to you, you are the only one who knows this blogsite anyway..:) Sigh, yes, actually, im quite contented with my life right now.. I passed the DLSU test!! Yey yey yey!!:) I mean, its not ADMU, but hey, its still a good school...

OH no... 3 days of vacation left.. The horror, the agony, the pain... All those responsibilities and duties... But of course, there is always joy in doing those things..:) You get to meet a lot of friendly people, get close to them and be very good friends..:) For the people who are and are gonna read this, thanks for everything guys!!:) (especially that girl best friend with an interesting blog, you know who you are!!) Hehehe, till next time..:)

i think this is better!

2004-12-26T22:11:00.000+08:00

Well, this is my first entry here..:) Actually, i have another online journal somewhere.. I was just supposed to create an account in order to leave a comment for my ever-dearest friend trix, but i then decided to use the account anyway because i think this is better.:) Well, later, i'm talking to people in ym right now... and watching the game between the heat and lakers:).. ugh, i hope the lakers lose... i used to be a fan, till they erased everybody from the line-up..:) Hehe!:)